The Internet. Love. Hate. Religion. Politics. Health. The ACA. Mean People.

My brain is still reeling from being completely overwhelmed with…I don’t even know – astonishment? Confusion? Disgust? So many emotions and thoughts that even the title of this blog post couldn’t cover everything I wanted it to be about. Let me work out the chain of events, and maybe that will help pull it all together.

I’d just gotten through reading and sharing a couple articles about the ACA (Affordable Care Act) on my 15wait15 Facebook page that were written by Karmel Allison on asweetlife.org. I don’t know her personally and haven’t read much of her stuff – just happened to read some today and found it interesting and share-worthy.

I saw a little (but not much, I admit, I got bored) of the President’s Rose Garden speech about the ACA. Then I see posts pop up from people in the DOC about Karmel Allison being the women who nearly fainted while standing behind President Obama as he was talking about the ACA and glitches in the online marketplace website, etc.

Interested now, I cruised on back to the speech, read the article that someone had linked, watched the video, then did what I usually do with all articles I read online – read the comments underneath. I wish I hadn’t.

Just a few snippets here – click on the link above to read more if you dare.

  • The-Monk Oct. 21, 2013 at 12:26pm “That’s called rotating the Latino’s so it looks like there are more in the camera to impress any Latino’s watching.That or her ObamaScare health policy Doctor put her on the wrong meds and she’s about to die.”
  • drattastic Oct 21, 2013 at 12:26pm “Junkie, still in bad share after her latest abortion.”
  • rickc34 Oct. 21, 2013 at 1:18pm “It was all that concentrated evil Obama aka son of satan puts out”

…and those aren’t even some of the worst comments. I can’t bear to give any more of them added attention. My heart just broke. THIS is how people choose to respond to this? Some poor woman looks visibly distressed, needs to leave the podium behind the President, and you assume the worst? You take to the internet to bad-mouth her, tout conspiracy theories, and say horrible things about her, all because she appears to be aligned with the current President of the United States, and you do not like him/his policies? Shame.

I hope that those people realize now that she is a Type 1 diabetic, who is *pregnant* for Pete’s sake, so she could have had a low, been dehydrated, felt woozy, who knows. I’m sure it had nothing to do with BEING ON NATIONAL TELEVISION STANDING BEHIND THE PRESIDENT or anything like that. Gosh, I think my own sugar just dropped a few points from my brain going crazy thinking about that. And pregnant??!! Geesh! Forgot blood sugar and bodily control then.

My thoughts still aren’t quite organized, and I’m still so angry I could spit nails, but here’s what I have to say, take it or leave it:

  • Shame on anyone who relished in her discomfort, called her names, assumed it was staged, used it as a stepping stone for their own political hate-filled agenda.
  • The internet makes it oh-so-easy to have diarrhea of the mouth/fingers. Think before you comment. Pretend that person is standing next to you in THE SAME ROOM. Would you say that comment out loud? The internet has served to encourage a League of Extraordinary Bullies, and I hate it for that, almost as much as I love it for connecting me to the community of people called the DOC. The dichotomy does not escape me.
  • I don’t care what your religion or political leanings are – it’s no excuse for verbally assaulting someone else on the internet (whether you know them or not!), or anywhere else for that matter. I try not to judge, but in my opinion, you purposefully saying/doing hurtful things means YOU are a mean person. And I will not associate myself with mean people.
  • I try very hard not to discuss religion or politics online anymore, not even on my personal social media pages. It is too polarizing, and there are people I love dearly who will say things that make me want to scream, and I bite my tongue instead. I just don’t understand why we can’t all have different beliefs and opinions, and still get along and find common ground? You don’t have to be my best friend, and I don’t have to be yours. We CAN have different beliefs and thoughts on religion, or politics, or child rearing, or anything else of a million different things that make us individuals, *without* it resorting to being mean-spirited and hateful towards one another.
English: Love Heart symbol interlaced

Love Heart symbol interlaced (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

All that to say….I guess it all comes down to having mutual respect for one another in this world. I’m not sure that exists anymore – certainly not on a grand scale, and that makes me very sad.

There are precious few things that will offend me or cause me to blow up in anger – if you hurt me or someone I love, physically or emotionally,  you can expect a fight. If you are out in the world hurting other people/animals physically or emotionally, or doing things that could lead to them being hurt, I will defy you. (I can’t go too far down the rabbit-hole here. I eat meat, I know animals are killed for it, there are many other social issues that impact people, etc, but hopefully you get the gist of what I mean here.)  Otherwise, we can live in relative peace and harmony no matter who you are, what you do, what you believe in. I have done my best over the years to help people and help animals. Note: I am not guiltless – I know I have emotionally hurt people in the past, and I am sorry for that. I was young and stupid at one point, too. But I grew up and learned better. Tried to make better friends, better choices, and learn from my experiences. I like to think that Emily Dickinson was onto something when she wrote:

“IF I can stop one heart from breaking,
I shall not live in vain;
If I can ease one life the aching,
Or cool one pain,
Or help one fainting robin
Unto his nest again,
I shall not live in vain.”

Could you imagine a world where THAT was what people were concerned with instead of punching people in the internet-face with their own hate-filled speech and rhetoric? We are so far away from that kind of “helping” place, it’s pathetic.
I’m so tired of it. I can’t think about this anymore. I need to go give my daughter a hug.

Some posts/comments from others around the DOC about this follow. So many others have expressed what I feel as well, but in far better ways. I think it’s safe to say,  we’re all pretty riled up.

Happy Mother’s Day

So far today, my blood sugar range has fluctuated between 45 and 205 (according to my handy, dandy Dexcom)…which means I’ve felt either spacey-weak or fatigued-sleepy, and for more than a few minutes either way. Lows and highs tend to wreck how I feel, and don’t make me the best company to keep. But I have spent some wonderfully fun time today with my Mom, my husband, my daughter, two of my best friends, and the sons of one of them, and we’ll be having dinner tonight with my mother-in-law. It is the people in my life that make me say, “screw you, crappy blood sugars!” and pick myself up out of whatever funk the crazy sugars are causing, and have a good time anyway.

It is obvious that the high and low sugars are not the best part of my day – they certainly affect my day and how I feel, but it’s all the activities between those wonky sugars that really are the meat of my life. I appreciateMe & Penelope things so much more than I have in the past….mainly because I know that time is fleeting, and having a chronic disease could cut short the time I have on this Earth. But I really hope it doesn’t, and I’m doing my best to fight it everyday. I have been blessed with a beautiful daughter (who I will call Penelope or Penny within my blog – I don’t wish to splash her name all over the internet without her permission, and she really won’t have the presence of mind to give it for quite some time), and no matter how I felt about my health and my diabetes before she came along,  I have such a desire now to make sure I am here for a long, long time to be with her and see her grow and flourish.

Happy Mother’s Day to all mothers out there, all the women who wish to be mothers, all the mothers of non-human beings (I’m talking dogs, cats, etc, not aliens, but I guess we could wish alien mothers a happy day, too), and especially to my Mom and all the mothers I know personally in my life. You all ROCK!