So far today, my blood sugar range has fluctuated between 45 and 205 (according to my handy, dandy Dexcom)…which means I’ve felt either spacey-weak or fatigued-sleepy, and for more than a few minutes either way. Lows and highs tend to wreck how I feel, and don’t make me the best company to keep. But I have spent some wonderfully fun time today with my Mom, my husband, my daughter, two of my best friends, and the sons of one of them, and we’ll be having dinner tonight with my mother-in-law. It is the people in my life that make me say, “screw you, crappy blood sugars!” and pick myself up out of whatever funk the crazy sugars are causing, and have a good time anyway.
It is obvious that the high and low sugars are not the best part of my day – they certainly affect my day and how I feel, but it’s all the activities between those wonky sugars that really are the meat of my life. I appreciate things so much more than I have in the past….mainly because I know that time is fleeting, and having a chronic disease could cut short the time I have on this Earth. But I really hope it doesn’t, and I’m doing my best to fight it everyday. I have been blessed with a beautiful daughter (who I will call Penelope or Penny within my blog – I don’t wish to splash her name all over the internet without her permission, and she really won’t have the presence of mind to give it for quite some time), and no matter how I felt about my health and my diabetes before she came along, I have such a desire now to make sure I am here for a long, long time to be with her and see her grow and flourish.
Happy Mother’s Day to all mothers out there, all the women who wish to be mothers, all the mothers of non-human beings (I’m talking dogs, cats, etc, not aliens, but I guess we could wish alien mothers a happy day, too), and especially to my Mom and all the mothers I know personally in my life. You all ROCK!