Desperate times call for desperate measures (I think my next blog post should be called that) – I have TONS of material to share surrounding my surgery, hospitalization, and the recovery challenges so far) and having something like this done is no true “quick fix” to losing weight. It is a process, and a very tough one, especially when you add in Type 1 diabetes to the mix. Each day right now is an exercise in counting all the little victories. I WILL get there…..
See that empty bottle? THAT is my victory this morning. I drank *all 8 ounces* of that protein drink within the span of 3 hours as my breakfast. This is a GOOD thing – yesterday, it would have taken me at least 4 hours, or I would have given up and just started on the lunch one without finishing the breakfast one. My stomach is still swollen and inflamed from surgery, so it’s even smaller than it will eventually be once it’s settled down and healed completely. Getting in enough fluids each day, nutrition in the form of high protein shakes & drinks, and eating/taking all of my chew-able vitamins and minerals is yet another job on top of the other health-job I have in taking care of my diabetes. I wish I could tell you, “my blood sugars have been fantastic since the surgery!!!”….but they haven’t been fantastic. They are manageable, sort of, but running way higher on average than I like. I have a whole new “normal” to get accustomed to, and so does my body and all it’s inter-working parts. I’m getting there, slowly but surely, and promise I will have an upcoming post on blood sugar management pre-, during, and post-surgery.
Another victory to note? NO blood sugar crashes, at least! Dealing with potential low blood sugars was one of my primary concerns around the surgery and recovery time, and so far, I haven’t had to scramble and test the limits of how-much-apple-juice-I-could-consume-how-fast to bring up a low, because I haven’t had any. Whew. Knock on wood, fingers crossed, and all that jazz.
The biggest challenge I am having right now is that I have ZERO energy. Mainly because, I’m lucky if I consume 500 calories per day. (MyFitnessPal keeps telling me I’m not consuming enough calories – like, I didn’t know that already??) I have some kind of protein drink, water, sugar-free popsicle, soup, sugar-free Jello, etc. in my hand all day long, and I literally just can’t consume more – my stomach says, “enough!” and I listen to it, or else pay the consequences in pain/burping, or potential vomiting. (Again, a victory I hope to maintain – no throwing up.) I had my first post-surgery followup appointment yesterday, and my PA said I am doing great. I’m getting in a good amount of protein, and she says the calories and ability to consume what I need will come with a little more time – my stomach still has to heal.
And you know what? Here’s a pretty big victory. In the last 2 weeks, since I started on the pre-surgery all-liquid diet, I have lost almost 20 pounds. T-W-E-N-T-Y. It has not been an easy 20 pounds, but I am owning it, and it’s giving me even more motivation to keep on doing whatever I have to in order to use this tool of weight loss to make my life better and healthier. My stomach will never be the same again, and neither will I. I am committed, and I will do what I need to do in order to be healthy – for myself, and for everyone I love. And you know what I’m really looking forward to? Hiking long distances. Running and being carefree. Doing cartwheels with my daughter. So many things that I used to love to do, but couldn’t because of the weight. I WILL do them again, and soon!!!