Shake It Out

Driving home from dropping my daughter off at preschool, “Shake It Out” came on the radio. I got home, sat in my car in the garage, cranked up the volume, and sang along with it as loud as I could. What’s up with the radio universe always playing the song that completely fits your emotional state right when you need it? (Kind of like when you would break up with someone, all you would hear on the radio were love songs/breaking up songs. Geesh.)

I am about to make a huge change in my life after years of feeling I was in a dark place of helplessness that I could never get out of with my weight. “It’s always darkest before the dawn.” I’ll admit, there was some emotional crying going on as I was singing, too. The words don’t fit perfectly, but they are pretty close. I’m more than ready to shake off that devil, and dance for the rest of my life.

(And thank you all for the very kind words, comments, and offers of support to my post yesterday. I’m still a little nervous about sharing all this, but if it can help me work through this journey as well as possibly helping someone else in the future, it will all be worth it.)

“Shake It Out” ~ by Florence + The Machines

Regrets collect like old friends
Here to relive your darkest moments
I can see no way, I can see no way
And all of the ghouls come out to play

And every demon wants his pound of flesh
But I like to keep some things to myself
I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’ve been a fool and I’ve been blind
I can never leave the past behind
I can see no way, I can see no way
I’m always dragging that horse around

Our love is pastured, such a mournful sound
Tonight I’m gonna bury that horse in the ground
So I like to keep my issues drawn
But it’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And I am done with my graceless heart
So tonight I’m gonna cut it out and then restart
‘Cause I like to keep my issues drawn
It’s always darkest before the dawn

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
And given half the chance would I take any of it back
It’s a fine romance but it’s left me so undone
It’s always darkest before the dawn

And I’m damned if I do and I’m damned if I don’t
So here’s to drinks in the dark at the end of my road
And I’m ready to suffer and I’m ready to hope
It’s a shot in the dark aimed right at my throat
‘Cause looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Looking for heaven, found the devil in me
Well what the hell I’m gonna let it happen to me, yeah

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa
And it’s hard to dance with a devil on your back
So shake him off, oh whoa

2 thoughts on “Shake It Out

  1. I don’t know how I missed yesterday’s post, but good luck on following through with what must be a very difficult decision. Periodically on TuDiabetes I’ve seen posts where a Type 1 asks about finding other T1′s who have had bariatric surgery, but I don’t recall seeing many answers.

    Because I don’t believe that there is anything about a Type 1 that protects a person from getting metabolic syndrome and Type 2 issues, I would think there are a lot of people out there with the issues you’re facing.

    So Shake It Out, Girl, and you’ve got a lot of people in the DOC who have your back.

  2. Lately I have been in a very dark place myself and the lyrics describe how I have been feeling. Thank you so much for sharing and I wish you all the best with any health/life issues you are struggling with right now. Keep your head up, things will get better:)

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